This beautiful post was made by a friend on www.babyfit.com. I do not know the author, but it expresses the feelings I'm having lately about going from 1 to 2 better than I could have done myself.
I look at my little guy sometimes and think...how am I possibly going to be able to love someone else as much as you? I know God will give me the love it takes, but it's so hard to imagine. Then, I wonder if I have given him enough of my undivided time, and suddenly I'm so anxious to share more of myself with him.
Please enjoy this beautiful thought:
I walk along holding your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical relationship. Suddenly I feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that our time alone is limited. And I wonder: how could I ever love another child as I love you?
Then she is born, and I watch you. I watch the pain you feel at having to share me as youve never shared me before.
I hear you telling me in your own way, Please love only me. And I hear myself telling you in mine, I cant, knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
You cry. I cry with you. I almost see our new baby as an intruder on the precious relationship we once shared. A relationship we can never quite have again.
But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and feeling almost guilty. Im afraid to let you see me enjoying her as though I am betraying you.
But then I notice your resentment change, first to curiosity, then to protectiveness, finally to genuine affection.
More days pass, and we are settling into a new routine. The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.
But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we two. There are new times only now, we are three. I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch each other.
I watch how she adores you as I have for so long. I see how excited you are by each of her new accomplishments. And I begin to realize that I havent taken something from you, Ive given something to you. I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of you. I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally strong. And my question is finally answered, to my amazement. Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you only differently.
And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know youll never share my love. There is enough of that for both of you .you each have your own supply.
I love you-both. And I thank you both for blessing my life.